I'm having a headache again, damn. Cant sleep, cant think, cant laugh.

Whatever, I will not take pills. I've been taking the pills that the doc gave me for headaches, but maybe I'm taking too much of it.



This is probably the fear of death. The only time one can be truly forgotten would be death.

'Lazy' will no longer be in my vocabulary.

Procrastination shall be cease
from existence.

Anyways, I foresee myself taking a nap today. Slept at 1 last night and woke up at 8, gosh.

I shall do plenty of things today. First, I wanna embark on project daily patterns, start sketching and finish the entire project by the end of this holiday (My holiday resolution). Secondly, I wanna start studying. Yes, if I don't start now.. there will never be a beginning. The reason why I can't get things now is due to laziness and procrastination. What's the point man, life could be much more fruitful if they never existed.

Paper shopping with eug + Rockclimbing training.
lol, I sound motivated today huh?

I'll sleep early tonight

Love,
G

One should create a
purpose for their stay here

Life, to me, do not have a
purpose.

Now, look at that! Some horses with prettier hair than Gen.

Which design should I choose?
#1

#2

#3


I like #1 but others are tempting too. Which one?
Genevieve Ang



Sentosa Trip tmr :D cant wait!

Love,
G
So my holiday begins today.
1. Pack my room
2. File my papers

That would probably take a week or so. The room is in such a mess that one would believe that a dude who collects rubbish lives in here. That is how bad it is.

So, for the past two weeks I've been busy with internship in a law firm, Tan Kok Quan Partnership. It had been a blast of paper work, lawyer's life and people who have super abilities. Ha ha, but nevertheless I had fun. Met some really awesome people whom I truly admire and made some cute friends there.

A law firm looks like my room. Yes, boxes of papers everywhere. Staffs were simply drown into the world of papers and files. Lawyers, sadly, do not have glam offices. They reply dozens of e-mail every hour, walking at an alarming speed (almost died in heels) and could go on talking for at least an hour before they stop to take a breath. It is one occupation, not for Gen.

Anyways, think I'm gonna do sth, maybe nth. Whatever. Bye

Love,
G

I wonder if you could love someone who is no longer there. Sometimes I wonder why didn't I see it coming, why couldn't I see the end coming? How could I not see the change.
It's the holiday season again, but I don't feel like I'm having holiday at all.

Hm, if I ever start working during my leave days I will just go home and sleep.

Love,
G
Felt like I haven't rest at all for the entire weekend. shit man.

Friday, Green wheelers, rockclimbing.
Saturday, ballet then birthday celebration.
Sunday, Green wheelers and my father's birthday celebration.

Monday, work. Am I tired or am I tired.

Can't wait for holidays to start next week. Gonna chill & relax.

Love,
G
*Gasp


why haven't my shoes arrived? It's taking soooooooooooooooooooo long.

Anyways, I feel like shit now. The left side of my stomach hurts like crap & no matter how much I sleep, I still feel god damn sleepy. I need my new shoes for the internship, so freaking come shoes. Full court attire with a jacket. I've absolutely no idea what is full court attire, someone guide me please. Starting to regret about the sign up, damn.

My head is aching, my stomach is aching, my eyes are sore & I want to go to sleep. Gen don't feel very well. DAMN

Love,
G

I had a dream that I should post about.

I was fighting zombies. The funny thing was, I was using a gun filled with cotton bullets! & I think the zombie was either my friend Junhao or my sister Caroline. They gave me a 'neh neh boo boo' face, cuz I couldn't kill them (I felt like a loser man). In an attempt to kill them, I tried to make bigger cotton bullet but to no avail (loser man!). Oh, but I have to say the bullets are really pretty since it comes in different colour. I knew someone was helping me, I think he's an unknown cute guy. The background was pretty cool, it's raining and there were alot of fighting around me. I was probably the most useless warrior there. I also dreamt that the strongest warrior killed himself, he had a long moustache and he looked like a Mongolians. That's my dream for you.

What triggered this dream was probably playing L4D the previous night. Now now, time for school.

Gotta look for a gray bandage

Love,
G


I'm not obsessed with specs now, but I think I'm getting one next year. My eyes... they are failing me especially when I'm tired. Get too lazy to copy down notes since I can't exactly see.

I look geeky in specs I might as well get the geek-est one :D & like the shape of the one above. No guys, please don't stop me just tolerate! hahaha

Love,
G


I love the bow belts, the colour, the shorts, the pants, the skirt & the shoes. Ya, I love the entire thing. I like the outerwear I saw today :( Money, can you please drop from the sky.

I'm real tired. G'night world.

SPECIAL EDITION
For Vick, he did awesome today! WOOHOOO, I'm actually very tired but I'm still blogging about it. See how much I wanna rem it. hahah! I like the second last song which is nameless the most. Sing that often yea?



Love,
G
I need more rings

Yesterday's rain was like the one in my dream. & the sad part was probably due to my shoes :/ it was totally wet. Felt hell uncomfy & had to buy a pair of flipflop. Haha so my dream did come true, well, partially which is enough.

wooohoo, vick's gig tonight plus L4D!

Love,
G
Pretty pretty!


I had a damn long dream last night. It was raining, no, more like it was after a real heavy rain. I was located somewhere near the sub-urban with mountains & it was an awesome view of nature. I felt rather sad, more lonely though. There were two guys that I've never seen before but was on pretty good terms with them. We were probably suppose to meet some other people at 3 somewhere on the mountain... I got a feeling it was something related to somebody's death, probably a funeral.

Suddenly, I was bathing.. Then my parents came home but they don't look like my parents at all. The house was pretty cozy though, but I still felt damn sad. Ha ha, the entire dream was really really slow I was moving like a sloth & I felt sad in an awful way. The sadness was so slow that it sips little by little into the depth of me. Yea, I didn't know I could feel so down. Is this a bad omen for friday the 13th? Hm, hope not. You just read a whole lot of bullshit.

Lunch with mum & dad :)

Love,
G


Yes, No? Tempting.

I'm really hungry now. Very very hungry actually. I had quite a number of things today so I dont quite understand my hunger now. Home made curry puff for breakfast, porridge for lunch, chocolate for tea-break & a little rice plus soup for dinner. My gosh & Im still damn hungry! Should have bought riceballs before coming home.

Bought new paper to redo my tumblr <3 Can't wait can't wait. Alright I'm really too hungry to continue my post. Time for supper.

11.45pm
Thanks to dearest RK, I'm no longer hungry. Feeling rather fat now. Bomb cheese at prata house :/ anyways had a good time catching up with my old pal!

Love,
G
There's only 7 weeks to end of 2009..

my gosh
I love the entire colllection though some are rather over done. Anyways, I'm officially free from PW. Seriously, I love it. Nothing to fret about, nothing to work into the late night for and no more carrying laptops to school. Yes :D

1. Vicky Christina Barcelona
2. Psycho
3. Forrest Gump

While Fadhilah needs to watch Carrie, The Shining, Red Dragon & The silence of lambs.

The only war that human can't win against,
is the war against nature.

StarHub to bring iPhone to customers in Singapore

WOOHOO, the latest news today :) Now I dont have to switch to Singtel.

I need a new toothbrush.

Love,
G
WOOOHOOOOOOOO

I'm contemplating whether to install L4D on my laptop or not.

Ah, better not. Wouldn't want to get addicted to it & totally turn into a hardcore gamer, that would be so... erm... not Gen. But anyways, I tried L4D last night. HAHA It was fun playing with girlfriends wooohooo yes, Jerm that includes you gf! Can't wait for next week after Vick's gig. Hah

Well well, it's the time of the year when everything seems so settled & things are going at a rather awesome pace. The anticipation for christmas, the great atmosphere & the amazing friends. All are wonderful at the end of the year. Oh, nothing forgetting the pretty lights...

Maybe I'm a fly in my past life, I'm super attracted to pretty lights...

I kinda dread the arrival of next year already.



Love,
G

I'm 19.
I'm just wondering how many more years can I wear my skinnies ahah

Junhao

I'm so bloated from eating all the cereals I could..

I'm starting to like the taste of honey alot.

Love,
G


How many shoes do you have?

Anyways, on a lighter note, away from all the chaos and danger of the world, I just took a bath. Gonna be slaughtered into a million pieces by my little cousin cuz I freaking broke his lego house. He took 3 days to build it... I foresee myself building it back diligently for the next few days.

Oh crap, he's cryingg... "She has to rebuild it!" Yea, he's chanting that. My gosh, I'm no good with legos.

Damn. OK I just built an all white house with a rooftop garden. Sounds good? haha, look ridiculous though. Been wasting my day away looking through pictures, pretty pictures of everybody. A little bird is stuck in my house... What to do? I can't reach it.

I've to go reach it now.. Eventful day isn't it?

Desperate for one



Love,
G

, originally uploaded by ericaelizabethfleming.

Be the change, do something different.

Because you have the power to.

Every morning I'll see this group of awesome people waiting for everybody at more or less the same table :)

There isn't morning assembly so woohoo Im going to school late. Guess I'm rather late; need to be meeting my pw mates to finish up some last minute stuff.

Mum's Birthday yesterday went great. She loved the rings I bought her and I love the rings that I bought her. Time to stop, I'm reaching my stop soon.

I sense an impending sore throat. Please, no...

Love,
G

Hm, this is probably my favourite picture of the school ever.

Its 10 already & Ive yet to accomplished anything. Gonna burn & die tmr.

Love,
G


The little treasure Mum found in Grandpa's house; Dad's 30 years old camera. Time to get it fix.

It's Sunday again. Sundays are bad enough since there's school on Monday, but this Sunday is exceptionally awful because there's Chinese A's tmr. I pray that luck would be with me... just like promos. I pray that I'll become damn cheena in one night; to be able to spill out ching chong idioms and what not. Argh, I need to get this over & done with. No, I need to get school over & done with.

Love,
G

To brighten up our Sunday Morning

Love,
G

My new friend Ruby across the street


A little kid about a year old pointed at me. I thought he couldn't see me (Assuming that kids generally do not have good eye sight) but he started smiling at me. I waved at him and he waved back, shouting "jie" (I think it is). Isn't it weird? Kids don't usually do that. Maybe he knew me from his past life. We may have been close friends, family or even lovers. Ha ha, my imagination's running wild again. I probably died before he did, that is why I'm older.

If we really do have a previous life, I wonder what I was and who I was. I could've been a zoo keeper...

Just finished 'The house keeper & the professor'. I love it, very much.

“My memory only lasts 80 minutes.”

Truly,
G
I played with a cat name, ruby. She's white with big light brown spots and she has a blue bell around her neck. I wonder why she's called ruby; I like it.



Love,
G
I've three hours of break now. I feel unsafe to feel safe about my written report. It's time for me to stop feeling like shit for PW; nothing is going to change. The fact that I didn't care about it, that nobody bothered about it and still not having a content page. It is too late to care.

School end at 4 & I'm having a three hours break - doesn't make sense, does it? That's my school for you...



Love,
G


Alan's birthday was real fun.

All fun has to come to an end.

Love,
G
I just packed the 'gift drawer'. It is a drawer filled with gifts and cards or rather memories. I realised what touches me the most are cards, they are truly very lasting and y'know what? They still make me smile. Some of them are from people who I no longer talk to or people who I'll never see again; it's hard to believe.

"Hmm, I wonder if we'll still talk 5 to 10 years
down the road. I hope so. Time will tell, you will see. What has become of you
& me."

Things really did change alot. We aren't the same anymore and will never be. I'm not sure whether time has change us for the better or the worse. Maybe it is best if things are left the way it is, as we carry on with our own lives.

Love,
G
Ive a sudden urge to abandon PW.


No

Love,
G
Hello,

Started playing at tumblr www.ohcolours.tumblr.com

▲ ▼ ► ◄
Look at what I did to my Ipodz

Love,
G



sprained my ankle.

skipped finals.

rotting away.
I'm bored to the extent of irritation.

I'm bored because I can't do the things I want to do, so many limitations, so many interuptions. I would rather be at home packing my room or simply sleeping my day away. Instead of staying in an almost empty classroom, doing project work with no one. Or waiting for chinese lessons in another hour's time. This is pathetic.

y'know what maybe I'm just freaking tired... ...

Love,
G
I had a dream, maybe a vision (!) that my MSG is 1.

Love,
G
cam whoring with my mum's shades :D

PROMOS ENDED WOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Am I happy or what man?! haha
Shopping was great fun, omg, almost forgotten the joy of walking hours and hours just for probably a skirt or a freaking dress? Talking about everything but studies and formulas. Staying out late as though there's no school or library days to worry about. And lastly, meeting up with beloved old friends from sec school. <3
Why Physics has got to be on the last day.

When I'm most jaded, sick and tired.

I long for the end of tomorrow.

Post-Promos List:
1. CLIMB
2. SLEEP
3. PLAY
4. PAINT I so need to start again
5. STONE
6. BANGKOK TRIP! (omg, we havent book the tickets!)
7. STUDY (tiny bit)

oh, and pay my phone bill

Love,
G
It's feels like the end of promotional exams.

Econs wasn't as bad :)

Just took a three hours nap, my gosh. Time to study

Love,
G
I'm tired.


Haha, hello to my new hair :D
Studying break! No doubt theres promos on friday, Im super glad that isnt school for these two days :D No more waking up at some uncivilised hour of 5am. TIME TO STUDY HISTORY.
OK, I'm screwed. Stayed home because of a major headache in the morning. i must have miss alot today :/

Gotta go to the doctor now.

PS: GEN PLEASE STUDY & stop sleeping

Love,
G

Do what you want to,
not what you need to

Weijing

Remembered saying about doing only things that I needed & not my wants. But I guess things are getting better. I still have many wants but it can wait. I will do them, just not now cuz Ive plenty of time waiting for me after A's. Who says time waits for no man?

Im probably 10 years into education. How can one not developed something with books, teachers, schools and most of all completing task such as assignments & homework. We study, hate it, love it, feel indifferent about it or more than often get sick of it. Doesn't that sound alot like love? Ha ha, love comes with all of those, I guess. Nah, dont worry Im no freak & I don't love studying but I guess its kinda like a relationship. You've to put effort in it to make it work even if its bad. Everything will come to an end so maybe we should just embrace it. Its only once in a life time to be in school, isn't it?

Pardon me, I feel like I am working for MOE but I'm just consoling myself. Now, I should probably change needs into wants making life more tolerable.

Must be the chocolate brownies

Love,
G

Calm down gen, calm down.

Woke up so cranky today, maybe due to the lack of sleep. OK, this isn't really helping. Hm, why don't I dream? because I'm a light sleeper? that sucks. I want to a dream.

So, a week to promos, a week to promos, a week to promos. Hmmm, I don't know why, but I feel pissed about it. Argh, maybe I'm just grumpy. I've been quite a glum these few days. NVM

This cheered me up :D haha
Love,
G
Hello

I just deleted my blog post because of the drastic change in mood.
I'm not feeling very happy now.

Time for some kick ass mugging. I'm gonna disappear alone.

Love,
G


Heck rotten tomatoes. The Ugly Truth was awesome, even though the plot was normal and yes, it was cliche. Nevertheless, it was funny which was just the movie I needed after finishing the Math Promos Practice Paper. I took the entire afternoon doing it and worse, there were so many questions I didn't know how to do. Am I dead or am I dead?

Ok, my mind is kinda messed up now. So much going on in there that I can barely put into words, maybe cuz I'm really tired. Plus math totally killed my brain cells and sucked my brain juice dry.

You know what, I've a bad habit. A bad habit of stereotyping people at first sight. After which, I wouldn't want to understand them further. How wrong I am. People whom I know for years surprise me, perhaps because they finally changed their impression of themselves in me. Hah, I'm pretty glad I know another side of them now. maybe everybody isn't what they are. They're not cuz you'll never know.

Love,
G


My, my, September holidays are coming to an end.

I had fun :) maybe too much fun. I seriously need to spend my days like today. I was stationed in the library since morning. Tampines library, I know, pretty crazy for me to go all the way there to study on a Sunday. It was productive anyways.

My idea of wanting to be a 160GB Ipod classic

hafiz. says:
Just look at how much we study. xD
And ok there's movies
We can basically remember certain parts from each movie at least
Then songs
I just think we can store more than 160gb
Theres our subconcious mind too
So much stuff is put there
Those little things
Like our habits and all

So, here comes an end to my regular blogging cuz it's really really time for the Promotional Exams.

Farewell to all


Love,
G
Facebook Fortune Teller:

Question: Will I get A for physics?
Answer: The answer is obvious...


Question: Were you being sarcastic?
Answer: What a good question! Of course!

I'm not gonna believe you
HAHA

Love,
Gene
Omg, since when Nano has a built in video camera?! I want that, why can't classic have that? Oh my, I'm secretly wishing that my classic will die so I can get the red nano... Nah, I shouldn't harbour this kind of evil thoughts.

Ok, I'm suppose to be buying bananas and top flour or sth along that line to make muffins for the picnic later at marina barrage. & yes, there's chunkfest today :D hope we'll get a sit & it doesn't rain.

Love,
G
Today was so wasted, the rain, the sore eye, the bad mood.

I attempted studying but the house had way too many distraction, the noise, the kids, the food, the computer, the bad mood still. These are one of those days which calls out "Life Sucks". Sleeping didn't help at all, I took a nap & woke up as cranky as ever. Ok, I shan't make it sound so miserable, need to mug.

Beautiful colour isn't it? I love the expression on the boy's face, he looks as cranky & as stuck as I am.

Love,
G
I woke up with my right eye sore, argh, super cranky now.

My Ipod is giving me problems again, itunes is being a bitch too.
I'm so so late, I thought it was 8am!

My my, look at the time now, 10. I should start reading the time properly. Funny isn't it? I belong to the category of people, who needs to have their watch on whenever their out. I'll feel insecure without my watch, pretty lost y'can say. Ironically, I don't really look at the time much nor punctual. In fact, I'm always late. Well, maybe because everybody else is late with a few exceptions(ha ha, rather stressful to go out with those people).

Its probably due to the evil invention of mobile phones, one can easily inform the other to ensure that he/she is coming soon... Putting the waiting one at 'ease'. At least the one waiting know that the other is coming yea? So the one that is coming can be late, HAH. see! We should go back to the era without cell phones, where everybody is on time! I did not just say that.

Gosh

Ok, I shouldn't be here, suppose to be in school by 11am. Damn

Love,
G
hey people, happy 9 day.
8th of sept was a disappointment, bet today will be a better day.

I'm such a computer addict, seriously. Someone, please, pull me away from this thing. My Ipod crashed last night, I think its feeling better but still in the mist of recovering.

If only I can restore my life, like how I can restore my Ipod. Songs, videos & photos were so easily cleared from the Ipod, as though it was granted a new life, new space for memories to be stored again. I wonder if, we, alike Ipods have a maximum capacity for memories to be stored. Ha ha If there is, I hope mine's like a 160GB, that means millions of songs or hundreds of movies. That's not too bad. Then eventually, there will come a time when my ipod's battery starts to run out really quickly, just like our stamina derogating as we grow older. Soon, we'll perish. A tragedy, isn't it? All the memories we've save, poof... gone.

Ah, after watching Breakfast At Tiffany's, I'm officially a Audrey Hepburn's fan. She is truly an icon.

Ms/Mr pimple, please disappear soon.


Love,
G
My Ipod, is... dying...

Please don't die, I promise I will treat you doubly nice, pinky promise.

It has been a while, I've so much to say, cross my heart. But somehow or another, when Im here, nothing comes. I vaguely remember something happy happened a few days back - a stranger. I know I wanted to blog badly about it but I simply can't recollect. Really can't. Gosh, I'm losing fragments of life that I thought meant quite a bit at that moment. I know it meant something. Damn.

It's September holidays. Probably one of the least holidayish holidays. Anyhows, I like it still. Caught up with a few things, reading, movies & myself along with all the other rubbish from school. Reckon I need to put more effort in school shit.

"I was always watching you.". This could have been a breathless declaration of love or a final farewell.

The Diving Pool by Yoko Ogawa

"I love you, come back to me..."
I cried. I'm not that type of person who actually remember names or take note of whose the director, author or what not but Joe Wright has impressed me. Movies I love were directed by him, example, The Soloist & Pride and Prejudice. Gosh, James McAvoy (Male lead of Atonement) was so cute. Second time I mentioned him, he acted in Becoming Jane before. & Keira Knightley... well, its obvious. So in a nutshell, the movie was awesome, I swear. After 1 year, since I walked out from video ezzy after being told off that its M18 & I couldn't rent it, HAH, PWNED.

Love,
G

Waiting for my hair to dry.

So, August flew pass me. It really did. Truly an awesome month, I don't mind repeating august all over again. So much happened, as though a year just went by but for now, its time to settle down and mug my ass off for promos. PROMISE.

By the way, 'Happy Teacher's Day'
to the people whom I partially owe my life to. Especially, Ms Hong, Mr Pillai & Mr Goh. These are teachers whom somehow made great impacts in me. Thank you.

Note to self: I'm such a fat lump, need to stop eating like a glutton. I cant afford to get anymore swollen

Love,
G

One of the places I have to visit in life, for now let's hope I'll be there in dreamland. Palau, only place on earth you can swim with jellyfish in peace.

Another rainy night, it'll be cold tomorrow morning. I'm having hiccups.

Note to self: Bring your jacket.

Love,
Genevieve

Finally, some wise words from Sara (think the specs changed you). Applies to many things in life, climbing, studies & ballet. Especially climbing though, our so-called 'climbing days' doesn't make sense according to this quote.

Alright, I'm pretty nervous about tmr's ballet exam. I've my 'pirouette days' too, tmr got be one. Damn, have been thinking so much of ballet, I didn't study at all. This will be the last day that I'll neglect studies, promise to myself.

she made did seem so easy


Love,
Genevieve

Time to send some love
&
Get life back on track

Love,
Genevieve
To my dearest sister,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU ASSHOLE!

thanks for sleeping so late everynight; keeping me awake. And waking up at 4am in the morning; waking me up. But nvm, it's your birthday today so I'm gonna say something nice. (It doesn't mean you can carry on that way)

I know I'm not the most ideal big sister around (absolutely not), but to me, you're one of the most ideal little sis. Thanks for helping me out at times. Pretty glad that you're a girl cuz we can share clothes, well, more like I can fit into yours. Whatever it is, you're an awfully nice sis. (ew, Im actually saying this)

Gosh, I should stop.

Love,
Big sister.


Ah, ya I do have a short chinese name.
Misplaced my physics guidebook, feeling down.
Anyways, met rk and km last night for ice-cream. Gosh, they're still as funny. And boy! I actually miss them. Talked to charm awhile ago too, haha I want to cut my hair with her. Can't wait.

Love,
G
\

I really can't wait for it.

Love,
G
Its five more minutes before I've to leave house for ballet.

So, just randomly I feel like posting

World Most Awesome stuff to Gen:

1. My Mum & Dad
2. Family
3. Bed
4. Friends
5. Colours
6. Sky
7. Love

Haha, cliche isn't it? Well, maybe the most cliche things are actually what touches us the most. Btw, I miss my bed rather badly. The bed went through pretty much with me, my tough times especially. I remember, when I was a kid whenever I start crying I would lock myself in my room cry on my bed till I fall asleep. Sadly, I can no longer take naps since school is demanding.

Gotta go now.

Love,
G

Sometimes I ask myself, what exactly am I doing?
Yes, I know what I want, where I'm heading but why?

Well, I've absolutely no idea. There's so many things I need to do but they're not what I want to do. There's so many things I love but I don't know why they meant so much. So what am I doing? Why am I doing this?

Life?

I'm glad I've a life though

Love,
Genevieve

I dont like hard carrots nor hard potatoes

but

I prefer soft carrots to soft potatoes :)

yet

with the presence of mash potato, the entire story changes.

I need a new toothbrush

Love,
Genevieve

I'm sick.

Haha, I feel like I'm watching the world from a third person view. My body don't feel like mine anymore, gosh. And I want to climb so badly, missing training with Mr Yam. I filed my stuff :) So proud of myself. I'm feeling sleepy again...

Oh man, this would be my third nap of the day.

Love,
G

Goodbye, Blackbird.

Love,
G
IM IN PHYSICS STAR

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
this just bloody ruin my entire week

ARGH
I got punched in my ass by Judy, Judy got pinched in the armpit (HAHA) by Fadhilah, Fadhilah got bitten by Judy.
It went on and on...

We're High People <3

No doubt, I was dead tired but I laughed.

Gosh, Im watching Traditional Burmese dance, listening to Lady Gaga, reading my EOM notes and blogging. Talk about multi-tasking. I've freaking no idea how am I going to learn the Burmese dance & we're suppose to teach!? Oh god, humanities week...I cant freaking do that?!


Tpjc.net is giving me a headache : "HTTP 500 Internal Server Error" ARGH

Love,
G

Hate it when I fall asleep on the sofa

Its
2am & Im awake... Nah, Im going back to bed

I wake up every morning, asking the same question.
Then, I will spend my entire day thinking hard for an answer, coming up with theories and solutions.
But, every night, the conclusion is the same.
Maybe I'll get an answer, 4 months? a year?
Or maybe never. Who knows, ha ha.


Love,
G
I came with the intention to blog about sth, I dont know what, just something.
So, I'm cracking my brain now to think about sth.

Thursday wasn't exactly a productive day, I fell asleep in the library while reading some Chinese book that I'm suppose to do for book review & I've no mood to do anything but blog now.

I feel like watching Nick & Norah's Infinite playlist again,
I want to take an afternoon nap (not on the bus),
I want to go crazy,
I want to cut my hair (but not till ballet exam's over),
I want to learn the dance step for Nobody!
Gosh its damn addictive.


On a total new note, I really want to cut my hair. I was in school, looking around, probably 80% of the population of girls in school have long hair & its freaking boring me. Can't wait till September, I would rather have short & ugly than boring long hair.

Hafiz asked me "Do you like ballet?"
I didn't know what to answer, because I've absolutely no feelings towards something that I'm so accustomed to. It kept me thinking, whether I really love something that I spend my entire weekend on. Do I? I think I do, its probably like how you love your mom and dad, being so used to them around, to the extent that sometimes the love is taken for granted. Or maybe, its like an old love, like old couples, so used to being together. Whatever it is, I can't possibly not love something that I'm not sick of even after a decade. & maybe being in love with someone is like the relationship between ballet & I. Ha ha though I can't imagine being in love with a living thing for a decade or probably the rest of my life. Can I?

Then it led me to another question
Liking, Crushing & Loving? Tell me what's the difference?

Love,
G


Love,
G
I love his idea of recreation, John Paul Thurlow

Randomly, if I were a guy, the first thing Im gonna do is to pee. I also want to have lots of nice boxers.

Im so tired now, shouldnt have went for the extra lessons before my actual one cuz Im too tired for my actual ballet class now. Im falling asleep...

sleep..

Love,
G
This picture is posted for a skinny petite person, whose afraid that he may bald like his father. He'll probably look like this(if he ever balds), skinny & topless.
(which probably wouldn't happen till 20 years later)

http://i.boinot.free.fr/ {love her pieces}

So, Im a sad person. Really. Im gonna fail the only subject that I could've pass, but sadly Im not gonna pass the subject that I'll fail cuz I wrote out of point, & I feel like a failure because I can't pass a subject that I can pass and I'm gonna fail it.

So, in short, I'm failing. History paper was a disaster.

Love,
G

Here comes July...
Good bye June, it was awesome.

Love,
G
These are one of those times that I wish I'm a guy
It has been one hell of a holiday

I had so much fun and amazingly, I did study not alot but at least I'm at ease now. Even though I've yet to touch my history & math. Whatever, fate will decide.

OK so, in a nutshell holidays was rockclimbing, camp (awesome fun!), panorama (which I didnt attend but was still there) rockmasters, still rockmasters, "Transformers", "Awake", "Alot like love"(fell asleep half way though) & studies(tiny bit). Felt really short, really.

Maybe it wasn't long enough for me to sit down at home just doing my stuff. So for now Im already looking forward to December holidays

May the new semester be an awesome one.

Love,
G


Health Ledger as Casanova, truly charming.

Love,
G
Admiration, Love, Respect, which one?

Meeting charm and jo to study tday.
But my chicken rice have yet to arrive home...
& Im starving

"May the King of pop rest in peace"

Love,
G

I studied.
felt good.

Why can't Itunes let us buy songs?!


I've been thinking,
maybe I'm better off alone.
It may get lonely,
yet it feels better.
Free from being
someone else.
I don't have to
talk, smile or laugh
I miss those days
when I'm absolutely by
myself.

Love,
G
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHANNON! <3
It has been a while since I know you & I realised we seldom talk. I hope your wish was "May Genevieve & I talk more from now on" :D Hope you'll have a bashing 19th birthday, make sure you do though, before you leave the teen league ha ha

Love,
G
Kriston is crying because he can't finish his journal entry which is freaking 2 pages long written by his mum & he refuses to take his dinner :/ omg, and look at what Im doing? Blogging & I freaking finished my dinner. Am I lousy or lousy? He's a freaking primary 1 and his working 10 times harder than me.

Now he's freaking crying cuz his mum came back.
Wtf.
Kids these days...

Im really tired.

Love,
G
Mum's coming back today, finally.
Am I suppose to quarantine myself?

Im really hungry & there isn't any food left at home. & Im really really upset by the fact that Wendy's Spice House closed down, I've no naans anymore.

I had fun with 5 cute little boys in Climbasia yday. Probably the first time I experienced chaos. Looking at my cousin kriston now he's probably an angel, well at least an angel who doesn't jump on me(haha). When Emanuel jumped on my shoulders, he started singing & can't believe that I heard "I can ride my bike without the handle" to "I can rub my butt without the handle". Gosh, age seriously corrupts one's mind. I learnt alot of new hand games or sth, my back probably got stronger too. Wonder where all the kids came from? Ben's little brother, cousins and an unknown kid who just joined in the fun. I had fun :)

Met charmaine recently, had one hell of a conversation about rats. Apparantly the rat population in serangoon is increasing, which is pretty obvious since I saw two just by walking to the bus. Charm went on telling her rat encounters or maybe her father's encounters which is rather disturbing. Oh, the rats are really really really big. Giants rats! Don't really wanna describe what she told me. But I miss you very much, see you soon <3

OK, time for breakfast.

Love,
G
When I've a house...

Im home alone with no food.
Everybody went to the fish farm to eat fish
& I cant eat the fish from my pond (I wouldnt)

Im suppose to be doing some math before I head out for some fun today, apparantly it isn't happening, Im a hopeless in math. I'll read my history notes, I promise.

I remember liking long bus rides very very much because I can read or at least do my homework, but it isn't happening too. Whenever I get onto the bus, I would simply feel like sleeping or attempt to sleep. Usually I would end up reflecting and thinking of ... ... well, whatever that was on my mind. I just don't feel like doing anything but stone. That's two whole hour wasted of doing absolutely... Nothing. I've no idea why I'm blogging about this.

Heck it.

Food hunt.

Love,
G
Mum's coming back on friday.
Thank god.

Father's Day this Saturday, I guess.
What should I get for Dad?

Life has been treating me well.

Love,
G

Its been a long long time since I blogged.

IM SO BOOOORRREEEEDDDDD NOW. I promise to finish my math and physics tutorials. Today is rest day, no rockclimbing but there's ballet. Gosh, I'm starting to feel nervous about the exam that's coming in September.

Can't wait for the next weekend. June holiday's going to be a blast of studies & fun.

Love,
Genevieve
PUMP FEST WAS ABSOLUTELY FUN TO WATCH :)

Love,
Genevieve

Its a Sunday & also mother's day :)

Haven't been blogging since forever, well, life have been treating me well. Starting to adapt to school & after school hours are fun at the rock wall. Pretty much settled into a weekly routine. Remember how much I wanted this two years to pass by real quickly? I wish it wouldn't, not so fast. It's already May and the Mid years are coming...

Since its mother's day, I want to tell the world wide web that I love my mum. She may be naggy but mummy wouldn't be mummy without all the nagging. She bakes the best cakes in the world and can cook anything I like to eat. My favourite would probably be Cranberry Cheesecake. Oh man, I feel like eating now.

I remember when I was 11, I tried making egg tart in the night before mother's day. I cracked like 10 eggs? separated them into yolk and white and didn't know what to do next even with the help of the recipe book. In addition, being just 11 staying up so late wasn't my kinda thing, so exhausation caught up with me and I had to abandon the egg tart project for bed. Woke up in the morning feeling lousy - can't even bake some simple tarts. Went down to the kitchen and found egg tarts already done by mum, haha, I felt terrible... and so, I learnt never to bake anything the night before since Im no talent for cooking. That year was pretty bad, wasn't it? Then my dad told me it was ok, since I attempted to bake... ah, but I still feel lousy about it even after 6 years.

Anyway, I didn't screw up this year. Time for lunch

Love,
Genevieve
I achieved a little tidiness in my little area, kinda felt a tiny sense of accomplishment.

BIRTHDAY WAS DOPE! hahaha
four cakes, :) from really sweet peeps.
Thank you to all, you guys made my 17th birthday an awesome day to remember.

Love,
Genevieve
I've to go school by myself :/ damn.

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIMOTHY! HAHAH
hope you had a fun time last night, sorry :( couldn't go since I've to wake up this early today. but someone's 19 already, haha fast isn't it? I've known you for 4 years when you were still that basketball fanatic (not like you're any better now) & now you're 19! Gosh, one more year and you're out of the teen league. So whatever it is Wish you have a last teen bashing birthday timo. Cya soon.

Love,
Genevieve
attempt to post : failed
I daresay this week has been my most lucky week.

It all started on tuesday when I decided to take 969 home actually its just my usual routine but I was absolutely worn out that day after checking out tampines one(the new shopping mall). So, with that terribly long bus ride home(no, I was on my way to beancurd but there was enough time to go home) from tampines to yishun I slept all the way back. Woke up and realised I missed the earlier stops at Khatib so I had to go to Yishun MRT for 169 to get home. Crossed the road, bought sushi and went on the bus. Started reading 'The Time Travler's Wife', looked up again after a while, and realised I was on the expressway to TAMPINES again... My heart sank, I was on the wrong bus I couldn't get down. 969 and 169, I obviously being a muddle-head didn't bother to read the first number :/ damn. I'm really sorry to the person who was at the beancurd store, by the time I got there, it was ten. The best part was my phone died on me so I couldn't call. My deepest apologies.

Bus ride experience was bad enough, but I dropped my Ipod three times this week, in addition I spoilt my lovely bling bling ear-piece :( Seriously, I can't find the same one anymore. And I've to bear with not having any music during the bus-rides for the time being, gosh its hell. Unlucky isn't it?

So much of bad luck, I should blog about happy things. Like meeting charm for dinner on thursday, ha, miss her badly.

Besides this, life's the same.

Love,
Genevieve
pretty morning, should have light
But

I can't believe I'm up at 4.30 just to do my National Education project, feel like a loser.

Love,
Genevieve
I've been looking at my room, and realised that I'm back to living in a rubbish den. Realizing that its so messy, it's impossible to pack in merely 30mins. I opened my waredrobe hoping to see neatness, and realised I'm a boring person, why are my clothes all plain? Yes, it is neat but it makes me sick.

It's time for a change.

I want.


Talking about colours, its time that I dye my white teeshirts. Thinking of dirty navy blue. I pray that it wouldn't turn out a disaster.

It's been days since I've started looking for a file but to no avail. No nice prints, nor the type of folder I want. If only I'm the file producer.

I dislike sundays, because monday is just tomorrow. I shall treat myself to chocolate eggs since I can't eat egg.

Love,
Genevieve
My best buy at Malaysia was probably two books at 35% off.

The Time Traveler's Wife
&
A Thousand Splendid Suns

Yes, I finally got my love. Malaysia one-day trip wasn't as good as I expected. Wanted to get a new bag but it turned out that there wasn't any to my liking. Besides that, little cousins went along too, making the entire journey like a nursery school. And I'm not a very kind person when I'm pissed, ha ha.

Ate like a glutton.

Love,
Genevieve
Won Banghur in chopsticks.
I had loads of stuff to blog about, now I'm empty. Home at 4pm, that's rather a miracle.

Perfection. It doesn't take a genius(haha) to figure out that usually people with perfect surface have zero EQ. But when you're in love, that's a different story. That reminded about the Time Traveler's Wife & I'm freaking craving to read it again.

I shan't talk about life in school because its just study, study and more study. I think I'm doing more than what I'm doing during O levels. Anyway, besides life in school, I practically do not have any life anyway. how sad is that. It's just 1 year and 6 months right. & looking at it, I'm already in for 2 months. It isn't that bad :) I've a nice class.

I swear, I had better things to blog about but I've no idea where all those thoughts went. Oh yes, I wanted to scan my notebook in & I'm really lazy to do that now. OH NOW I REMEMBER, I wanted to blog about the insects in tampines junior college. what a topic, yes. Is it just me? but I think there's ALOT of houseflies in the school. It always flying around & it's extremely annoying. Irritating me to the max! Even though the houseflies isn't flying around me, it's disgusting to see it flying around the crowd during morning assembly, I feel like throwing my book. KILL. OK, I better calm down and talk about the finer side of life.

Pretty isn't it? My ideal house, white, books and sky.

I hate the weather, I wanted to go for a jog but it rained.

Love,
Genevieve
fat
Sister made us participated in Earth hour.

Did you? Not like I was actually at home ha ha

It's good! Vote for Earth!!! - caroline


24th April, can't wait.

My favourite tune

Love,
Genevieve
I feel very disconnected from the world when there's school.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NADIRAH LOVE <3

instead of celebrating with nad, I was in hell. Ha ha, school was a torment as usual but today was exceptionally torturing from 5pm-6pm which was econs test. What logic it is for me to stay back from 3pm to 5pm just for a test? I know, it doesn't make any sense and amazingly I did. After which, I had to rush all the way down to thomson plaza for ballet which turned out really sweet.

Tuesday ballet class was the first class I started teaching. Probably my favourite. (I'm not suppose to be bias though, but who cares!) But since school had been such a bitch, keeping me back, draining the energy out of me, being so freaking far, I had to give weekdays teaching up...

Couldn't bear.

Class today was really fun, they were being so obedient (haha, cause their parents are in, acting only.) and I'm really touched by the lil gifts and cards they gave. One of them gave me a cat plushie! I never fancied soft toys but it was a catty & the best part was I love cats. And did I mention its a grey cat? My favourite colour... even if its by coincidence I'm still really happy with it. Named the cat after the girl, Amber. I'll miss them very much.

Watched"10 promises I made to my dog" on my way home yesterday. Almost cried on the train, by the time I reached home I was already laughing and crying at the same time. I like how the movie was portrayed.
Time for South East Asia History.

Love,
Genevieve
hate my headache.

hate mondays.
It's already Thursday! March holiday's ending... NO...

No doubt the holiday's ending but I had great fun. Tuesday was love.

To marry only with affection
Charm and Alethea came down to my house. Had our lil chit chat and watched 'Becoming Jane'. It ended off with dinner at Ivins. One of the best days of the year :)
we like himyes, there was rock climbing yesterday. Yes, we climbed the high wall. & yes! I finished the first wall :) "Dinner" with Sara and all was funny as usual. Watched this to sleep...

Disturbingly good
"If war is hell then what comes after?"Up till today, I love holidays. Randomly, I like the two female characters very much. There's more to come, time out with good old friends.

Love,
Genevieve

World Cup: Two civilised nations fighting for a ball

I like funny stuff - this movie is funny.

Love,
Genevieve
It rained, didnt climb the high wall. Didn't worth the time travelling.

Time to do my GP homework. Reluctant to attend the BBQ tmr....

.... ..... .....
Its gonna rain again. Why?

I can't climb the high wall that way... Maybe it'll be different in the east but how big can Singapore get to the extent that different areas have different weather :/ Maybe it will, looking at how long I need to travel everyday.

Oh man, Been starving since last night and I haven't had breakfast.

Love,
Genevieve
Can't describe how happy I am because of the march holidays ahead.

Seriously, I'm starting to regret my choice of school. Nvm all that. I've so much to catch up this "holiday"(its so short & the poly students are probably laughing at me), movie, stone and sleep. I'm so deprived of movies... missed so many great movies. Talking about this, I'm quite upset by the fact that 'The Reader' is RA. I know all the sex scenes aren't suitable for kids (Yes, Im a kid) but still... I so wanna watch the show, the book was wow.

I sat in the studio today just to watch because I was too lazy. I liked the weather but it turned out too cold. I can't believe what I did yesterday, I was so dumb. My post is all over the place now. Don't mind me, it will start to sound alienish from now. I'm surprised by how I felt, how I reacted and ultimately what I did. It was all too sudden for me to register, before I realised it, I was walking away already. I wish I was more sane. How dumb can I get?

Life in school had been :/ Hm, so much tutorials to the extent that I can't be bothered about it. I hate mondays, its mad. School ends at 5pm and I've ballet at thomson plaza at 6.45pm. My school is in tampines and to get to thomson at that time with all the jams?! Hm, it takes two hours. I don't know how I did it though. All this will end in April, looking forward to a better month. & I pray that school wouldn't be as dull.

Found another good reason why I should like long bus rides home. I've more excuse to spend time on reading. Reading kept my mind off things. I'm so tired of thinking but I can't stop, can't take my mind off the subject. Anyway, I've been thinking whether I should watch a movie by myself. It sounds fun :) Maybe it feels like reading a book. Would reserve a day to myself, probably tuesday. Oh I'm teaching jazz on tues, when I've absolutely no idea how to do jazz. Great.

Back to today, after ballet which actually kinda make up my entire day since piano in the morning was.. hm, I can't quite remembered what happened. Straight after lesson I went back to sleep again by the time I woke up, it was time for ballet and after class, met sara to chit chat. I need to vent it out man! I'm so tired of keeping everything to myself. Oh man, thank goodness I didn't go for the IT fair, from telly, the amount of people resembled ants. OK, I'm too tired to continue my messy post already. Maybe when my thoughts are more organised.

Love,
Genevieve

Today was lovely

Genevieve
I gave myself an excuse to buy new pens since I forgot to bring my pencil case today.

Why can't pencil case be called pen case? Isn't it true, since most of the stationary in the case are pens? OK, I can imagine what kinda replies I would get in return. People would probably tell me its called pencil case like why I'm called Genevieve. So, I came up with a theory myself, its called pencil case since we all started using pencils before pens. Pencils being the first things we put in the case,(& apparently there's lot of other type of cases) it would naturally be named after it. Ah, this is what one would become with too much time to spare on the bus.

Though trips home are really really long, I kinda enjoy it when the bus is extremely empty. I feel like I've space (literally) to think about things. Well, more like reflecting on my life or writing my diary since the moment I reach home I would be over-whelmed by my self-inflicted pressure of completing my tutorials & not 'wasting' time on my diary. On other occasions, for example today, I wished there was someone with me reading the same book so we could giggle together at the funny parts. Actually, I always wanted someone by my side, reading at the same pace, on the same page of the same book. Ha ha Best friend, we should do that soon! Cool isn't it?

Travelling home isn't so bad after all, get to meet 'new' people every now and then. Hm, they aren't exactly new people but people who I don't really talk to. It feels like opening up a present not knowing what to expect everyday. Oh man, I'm beat. BED TIME, I know its only 8.

G'night

Love,
Genevieve

Bought a new book to accompany me since I can't get my mind off some things.

I'm really tired.

School had been normal.
I miss alot of people out there :)

Time for nap.

Love,
Genevieve
BOOM. I hit my limits today. Went to the doc and got a bag full of medication :/ Oh one of it will make my urine turn red, that's scary.

It's raining again, even though its not the monsoon season. I like rain but if it starts raining too much at the wrong time it gets really annoying, like how babies are cute when they don't cry too much. Hm thinking about, the change in weather have been too extreme these days, I remember walking under the glaring sun before nap but look at the sky now, all dark and gloomy. Oh, did you know that the merlion got struck by lighting? Haha, this is what happens when Genevieve read the paper, picking up small little things of no importance(while missing the headlines).

I can't wait for Friday. Now tell me how am I suppose to get to thomson plaza?

Love,
Genevieve
I'm suppose to be doing my tutorials.

Hm, Charm and I found out that my body is giving signs of stress. But the problem is I don't feel it. Isn't it scarier that you don't know you're stress? I think it is! Well, looking back I think my week had been too hectic. I shall cool down & chill, if its possible which I highly doubt so. I should probably leave one day off from this coming week to stone at home and drink some tea to cool myself down.

PIANO :/

L,
G
I'm at tks hospital now. No, I'm not ill nor visiting. I'm here to chill out with charmaine at starbucks since united sq is filled. Its really empty here :D I like.

Since she's off to the loo now I shall blog! Hm, theres so much to talk about :D Old school memories to the hardcore present, haha AND YES I can't wait to go shopping with her. I want moolah to come in soon! We both agree that we should head down to ikea for swiss meatballs. & reading mag with her is sucha pleasure. OK SHES BACK!

Feels like the old times when charm and I used to study together. I miss studying out...

Will post more later I hope.

Love,
Genevieve
Finally, I'm home "early".

I've alot of homework.
I don't feel like doing.
I'll get screwed if I don't do.

My mum is trying to re-decorate my room with me since I can't be bothered anymore. Seriously, I've alot of things to write about but I can't remember. All I can think of now is how should I go about finishing my math tutorial because I've no idea how to do it.

Mum is rattling about my nonchalance of decorating my room. She always choose the best timing to nag, when I'm tired & irritated already. HAHAHAHAHAH

IM GOING CRAZY, im gonna blog at 4am tmr! CYA!
LOVE,
GENEVIEVE
Tried a different route home today. It wasn't exactly the fastest one but it makes no difference. What's the point of getting home really quickly (1 hour) but standing through the journey.

Met people who live around my area and I found a tpjcian who lives around the same estate as me! YAY

Time to sleep, road run tmr :D

Love,
Genevieve
Oh man, the only time I have time to come online is in the morning! How pathetic.

Love,
Genevieve
Waking at 5am really isnt my kinda thing?

Actually, no, its nobody's time to wake up.

Love,
Genevieve
I feel super duper guilty for not practising :/ I should abandon chill out time to come home early to practise piano.

Life's great :D Hm, I would find time to post everything in one go!

Love,
Genevieve